The 22-year-old instructor mocked me in front of the entire suburban dojo because I looked like a tired 35-year-old soccer mom in stained sweatpants.
I looked down into his terrified, bloodshot eyes. I realized my forearm was still pressed hard against his trachea. I could feel the rapid, frantic flutter of his pulse directly beneath my skin, knowing I was exactly one drop of body weight away from crushing his larynx. And I hated myself. I hated him for…
